ang | Entries tagged with fandom: vld

It's cold and dark all the time, I have no desire to watch the one show I was kind of giving a shit about for a while there, none of my bras fit*, and my D&D campaign got cancelled. I'm not, like, deeply morose, but I'm exhausted and having a hard time giving a shit about things right now, and it's the worst. Also, my ADHD medication just isn't working the way it used to (I'm still basically on the starter dosage because we never increased the dosage to full adult dosing in the first place because it was still working at that point), and I don't know if I want to go up in dosage or not? Executive dysfunction is a bitch, though, so I probably should, I guess.

Like, I should finish Voltron so I can get mad about it and write fix-it fic, because right now I want to write, but don't feel like I care enough about anything to actually focus enough to write something, but that would involve... watching Voltron, so, you know. See above, I guess.

Anyway! Hi! Welcome to my Dreamwidth! This is just how it is here sometimes!

edit: ALSO one of my WoWPvP twitter mutuals is making this really false equivalence about the Tumblr NSFW thing. ("Not liking this change means you didn't want them to do anything about child porn," basically.) And it's so wildly wrong that I'm having a hard time replying to him about why he's wrong so I'm just, like, not replying to his argument, I guess?

* Me, in 2016: I will lose weight and then! Then! my breasts will get smaller! And it will be easier to find bras that fit!
Me, in 2018: I lost weight and all that happened is my underbust got smaller so now it's even harder to find bras that fit because now I'm not a standard small fat bra size.

I made the mistake of reading spoilers for season 8 of Voltron and now I kind of don't want to catch up on the remaining seasons because I'm real upset about what I've read, primarily ( VLD S8 Spoiler )

All that aside, I've been trying to work on some Legion of Super-heroes fic, but I'm still stalling out because writing is hard and also because spending too many years adding 1k words every couple months to a story is no way to have a coherent sense of where you're going with it, and also you lose momentum. I do really want to work on this story because it's the only fanfiction I feel reasonably secure in writing right now, but it's just... really hard. I think the main thing is that I gotta come up with some good Fake Dating bits for it, and it all feels so self-indulgent it's hard to make myself do the thing, even though that's what Fake Dating fic is for.

I do have some vague ideas for some WoW fanfiction, and that's a small enough fic-writing fandom to be reasonably nonthreatening to me, but I also have no real interest in playing right now so I'm missing all the 8.1 developments insofar as any are relevant to characters I want to write about. (They probably are.)

Basically, what I really want is to get real excited about a fandom with some other people again, but liking things is just way too hard for me right now because I don't trust like that, or because I'm having archive panic about catching up on stuff, so here I am without a hyperfocus, floating in the ether, I guess.

Also, an aside, why does every page on Pillowfort take ten billion years to load?